Wednesday

bubbly

things on my mind at the moment:

i wrote a blog entry last night, but after i read it a few times, i decided not to post it. i don't know, i just felt weird about it. it didn't sound like me at all. maybe one day i'll get the courage to post it. ehh probably not. maybe i'll let lauren read it when i return to texas (in exactly one week!!!). anyway.. moving on.

speaking of texas.. i leave in exactly 170 hours. 7 days and 2 hours. 6:59 pm (eastern standard time) if anyone is confused. you have no idea how necessary a vacay is right now. i feel like i've been working myself to the bone, and then there's school and trying to maintain something that resembles a social life. ugh it's all just so exhausting. plus, i just really miss my old stomping grounds. it's hard to believe that it's been 10 whole months since i left, yet at the same time, it feels like it's been 10 years. i can't really explain it.

what i miss most in texas: my friends, especially my bests lauren and ashli, what's left of my family there, which wich, college life (it's not the same living at home and going to community college.), texas country, sonic (the closest one is in virginia.), southern hospitality, ugh the list is endless. i miss it all so much.

but..

i love maryland. really i do. i said it out loud for the first time in a long time yesterday, and it felt good. it felt right. i feel like i've found some clarity and peace here. being near my sister, my best friend in the whole entire world, has helped a lot. i felt really lost and alone in texas, especially after my mom moved to florida. i was so unhappy. it's kind of a long story that i hate telling. it doesn't really matter anymore though. i'm better now and happy again!

on a lighter note, the number one most played song on my ipod is bubbly by colbie caillat. that isn't even my favorite song, but it blew my top three songs (i'll share those later.) out of the water in terms of its number of plays. verrry interesting. i'm curious to know what everyone else's top played song is?

alright, it's time for me to stop rambling. i'm going out for dinner and drinks (ohhh the perks of being 21!) in an hour so i really have to go get ready now.

xoxo,
shannon